AHMAD IZZAT ASYRAF BIN MAZUKI 19094

Love Letter Reply

To :

Dear Hafiz ,

I have always known deep inside that I am more tied to emotions than I am to looks, or to first glances. I have to get to know someone. I can’t go on blind dates, I can’t get those tingly feelings when seeing someone attractive (Though I do give out compliments where compliments are due). It’s just not who I am. A person’s emotions and their thoughts are something that I truly admire, and find beautiful all on their own. Perhaps that is the reason why I stayed as long as we were. We were headstrong together, the ideal dreams kept us strong and I do not regret any of what we said to each other, what we worked up toward being. 

What I do regret however, is letting myself be stepped on, and walked on when I should have spoken up for myself. I know it was because of our age difference. The naive things said to me I would simply shake off because, being 20 and you 16 causes different opinions and such said between each other. I regret having not spoken my real feelings when you would tease me about my age, call me a fatty and think that it would not sting me just a little, constantly nag at me that you were far more superior than I. Constantly remind me of how others would flirt with you, constantly saying to me that although I could give all the love and support through words and gestures, it would never amount to be enough compared to the physical desires. And I know you did not mean it, or at least, in the way that would be insulting to others far more quickly than myself. I realize now it is because of my calm demeanor and ability to shrug it off that it probably more or less seemed like I never became impacted by the words you said. I don't want to marry you. Sorry. 

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                                                                                                    Cik Pah